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Fall into Peace

I am not okay. It takes guts to say that out loud and accept it. I am not okay, But I will be. The power of speech is powerful, Sometimes unshakeable. Someone can mean the world to you, But you don’t mean the world to them. So when the world falls and crashes, What doContinue reading “Fall into Peace”

Real Pain

Have you ever endured real pain? It is a serious emotion, One that can put a ripple in your goals, One that can press pause on your life. I thought I knew what pain was, But nothing compares to this. This is what pain actually feels like, When you stop feeling like yourself. Floating inContinue reading “Real Pain”

The Unforgotten

I will never forget, the day that changed my life. Unexpected and stunned, PTSD some may call it. So many years later, still bothersome. The flashbacks that I cannot unsee. It would drive anyone crazy. Unspeakable moments replaying constantly, where you’ll freeze as the brain goes numb. Except the freezing doesn’t last forever. The painContinue reading “The Unforgotten”

To Whom it May Concern

Dear Coach, Thank you for everything you said to me at our meeting. I would not be where I am today if it wasn’t for your disrespectful comments. Yeah, the ones where you said, “no disrespect, but you’re probably not going to the NFL.” I replay this moment every single day in my head, andContinue reading “To Whom it May Concern”

Dear Heart

Dear Heart, You have been good to me, even though lately, the struggle has been real. I have to ask…where do we go from here? I have to admit, surprisingly I haven’t lost hope. The sand in the hourglass is almost to the opposite side, and I must know what the near future holds. IContinue reading “Dear Heart”

Tranquility and Peacefulness

I spaced out, My thoughts wandered. I was alone standing in the darkness, with no light in sight. What was I supposed to do? What would you have done? I decided to sit down, cross my legs, and place my hands on my knees. I closed my eyes, and heard a waterfall in the distance.Continue reading “Tranquility and Peacefulness”

The Voices in my Head

What voices do you hear in your head and how do you get rid of the poisonous ones?

Don’t Worry About the Pain

I got so much pain in my eyes they can see it from a mile away. I was counted out, talked about, and most of all lied to. I doubted myself. What was said about me may have been true at the time, but was changeable for the future. Through all the bad, I learnedContinue reading “Don’t Worry About the Pain”