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Fall into Peace

I am not okay. It takes guts to say that out loud and accept it. I am not okay, But I will be. The power of speech is powerful, Sometimes unshakeable. Someone can mean the world to you, But you don’t mean the world to them. So when the world falls and crashes, What do…

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Real Pain

Have you ever endured real pain? It is a serious emotion, One that can put a ripple in your goals, One that can press pause on your life. I thought I knew what pain was, But nothing compares to this. This is what pain actually feels like, When you stop feeling like yourself. Floating in…

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The Unforgotten

I will never forget, the day that changed my life. Unexpected and stunned, PTSD some may call it. So many years later, still bothersome. The flashbacks that I cannot unsee. It would drive anyone crazy. Unspeakable moments replaying constantly, where you’ll freeze as the brain goes numb. Except the freezing doesn’t last forever. The pain…

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To Whom it May Concern

Dear Coach, Thank you for everything you said to me at our meeting. I would not be where I am today if it wasn’t for your disrespectful comments. Yeah, the ones where you said, “no disrespect, but you’re probably not going to the NFL.” I replay this moment every single day in my head, and…

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Dear Heart

Dear Heart, You have been good to me, even though lately, the struggle has been real. I have to ask…where do we go from here? I have to admit, surprisingly I haven’t lost hope. The sand in the hourglass is almost to the opposite side, and I must know what the near future holds. I…

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Welcome to your New Home

It was a strange night, a very strange night. Green leaves floating longer in the air, red ones abnormally sticking to the concrete. Trees were hanging almost sideways, and no one was seen out on the streets since the big storm was coming. People around town were calling it Tornado Tsunami Wanda. Folks were going…

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Tranquility and Peacefulness

I spaced out, My thoughts wandered. I was alone standing in the darkness, with no light in sight. What was I supposed to do? What would you have done? I decided to sit down, cross my legs, and place my hands on my knees. I closed my eyes, and heard a waterfall in the distance.…

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